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17 April 2012 @ 10:10 pm
So not in a good place right now.
Current Mood: depresseddepressed
03 November 2009 @ 12:10 am
I thought I had my decision made, but after tonight I'm not so sure. I just know that what I want to do is going cause problems with more than one person. I know what the best choice is, I'm just scared of the aftermath; no matter what people say I think there will still be a strain on more than one relationship
Current Mood: confusedconfused
02 November 2009 @ 04:01 pm
That’s how long it’s been since I last posted anything, and to be honest, until this past Sunday, it’s probably been that long since I last even logged in to LJ.

To say that life has been a bit crazy in that time period would be an understatement. I spent a good part of the summer getting ready for my sister’s wedding (which we had 6 weeks to plan) and then helping her and my brother-in-law move into their new house. I can’t tell you how old I feel now that my sister (who is younger than me) is married and owns a house. I’m actually a little jealous, but I am very, very, happy for them.

The next bit of craziness is that my boyfriend and I now live together. In the middle of September uncontrollable circumstances caused him to move in. I’m just glad my roommate was willing to help him. Us living together happened a bit sooner than we would have liked but I don’t think I could go back to us living apart and he agrees. In fact, I think it would be almost perfect if we had our own place.

All of the other craziness is due to drama that I’m not about to get into here or anywhere else. I’ve spent the past couple months debating in my head about what I should do and last night I came to a decision. When you can cut the tension with a knife everyday something has to be done. As a drama free person, there’s only so much I can take and I’ve met my quota. I just hope things can go into motion soon and that everyone involved understands that I’m not mad or going to drop off the face of the earth. I just have to do what is best for me.

Then of course there is some of the saddest news ever. I couldn’t believe it when I got the text saying the Scott Jeffers had died. We weren’t good friends but I was always happy to see him. He will be missed greatly.
Current Mood: anxiousanxious
03 May 2009 @ 07:31 pm
It's been a little over a month since my last update so I figured it was about time for one in case anyone cared.

A little over two month ago I got a promotion to credit analyst. Even though my title is that of credit analyst I don't analyze credit. My real job is that of collector and this job sucks ass. I don't like it at all. I kinda wish I was doing my old job making less money than doing my current job making more money.

I have not heard from my half-brother in over a month. He seemed like he really wanted to get to know me and my siblings when he first contacted me but now he does not. When he first messaged me he said that he wanted to talk to his father and he did just that. Now that he got what he wanted he doesn't seem to want anything to do with me, my sister, or my brother. I'm not too terribly upset about this. I guess that would make him his father's son, my dad is really good at using people to get what he wants and then drops them.

In a couple of weeks I will be out of my mom's house. I so cannot wait!

Things with my boyfriend are going quite well. He seems to be really into me which is fucking awesome! I had forgotten how much I missed being with someone. I was so used to being single that I didn't think I would be into all the cute things couples do when they first get together but I can't get enough of it. If you want to know what he looks like just check out my myspace, the default picture is one of him and I.

That would be about it. Talk to you guys later
Current Mood: contentcontent
28 March 2009 @ 01:59 pm
This week has been filled with good and bad. We will start with the bad.

While my parents were still married my dad had an affair that produced a kid. A couple of weeks ago I get this myspace message from some guy asking me my last name and says that he's looking for someone; I didn't think anything about it at the time and ignored the message. On Wednesday Beth tells me that this same guy sent her a message saying that they have the same father and mentions my dad's name. That was when I put two and two together and knew who this guy was. I always knew that this day would come I just was not quite prepared for it. I don't blame this kid for wanting to talk to his father and I hold no ill will towards him, it's just hard for me because this kid represents the betrayal I've felt towards my dad since I found out. As a result of this kid finding me and Beth (he thought she was my sister)I had my first conversation with my father about this. If you know me you know that I avoid confrontation at all costs and me calling my dad and bringing this up took all the nerve in the world. But I have been talking to the kid for the past couple of days and he seems pretty cool, but I still don't feel comfortable calling him my brother even though he is.

Now for the good.

I can now say that I have a boyfriend!!!! His name is Jason and I met him at this bar I go to a lot as he works there. We’ve been hanging out for a few weeks now but as of Thursday things are official. I am very excited and happy.
Current Mood: cheerfulcheerful
01 March 2009 @ 05:51 pm
Current Mood: fullfull
04 February 2009 @ 05:47 pm
I only really have two news items.

One being that I received a promotion at work. Apparently my job likes you to be there a year before you move to a different position. Luckily my one year was on January 21. Friday one of our collectors/credit analysts put in her two weeks notice. They asked me Friday afternoon if I was interested. I said I was but had to wait till Monday to talk to my bosses boss about the job. I talked to him on Monday morning and by Monday afternoon I was told that the job was mine.

My self esteem rose about 1000 points during all of this. I was told numerous times between Friday and Monday about how much they all really like me, how great I job I'm currently doing, how my current job is way below me and that there is no doubt in anyone's mind that I will be great at my new job. So, starting Feb. 16th we'll see how right they are.

My second news item is that I am finally moving out of my mom's house. I'm moving into my friend's house once his current roommate moves out at the end of the month.

So, so far I'd say that 2009 is going great.
Current Mood: accomplishedaccomplished
24 January 2009 @ 06:48 pm
Last night was really awesome. I went to the Repo event in December but I was really happy with myself for having something to actually talk to Terrence about when I met him. Also, Bill Moseley has to be one of the nicest people I've ever met.

It was awesome.
Current Mood: chipperchipper
19 January 2009 @ 08:32 pm
I understand why people pick up the house the night before the cleaning person comes but part of me thinks it's retarded.

I just don't feel like cleaning.
Current Mood: lethargiclethargic
11 January 2009 @ 04:35 pm
I have reached a milestone in my weight loss adventure. I have now lost 50 pounds since I started this journey in May.

Only 40 more to go until I reach my ultimate goal and only 15 more to go before I hit another milestone.
Current Mood: accomplishedaccomplished